Friday, September 28, 2012


I'm still in denial that Fall is here. The summer came and went way too quickly for my liking. The summer was full of events some good, some not so good and some that were damaging to my soul. In fact after reviewing our summer most of the things that effected me greatly were decisions made my others. Decisions that left me feeling like I was being spat on while they were stabbing me in the heart. May sound dramatic but these decisions concerned things very close to my heart. And because of these feelings and convictions, I in return was judged for not being Christlike or loving-which was more painful because I was doing everything in my power to be loving and understanding. It's been a vicious cycle of pain and it's not until I've allowed myself to feel vulnerable that I realize how much pain I'm holding in or holding on to. 

It wasn't until last nights run when tears started streaming down my face that I realized how much I have changed this summer. And not necessarily in a good way. I will say though I have learned some very valuable lessons. Just when I didn't think I had love or forgiveness to show, the Lord filled me to the prim with those characteristics for certain people. Even if they or others didn't see it. Most of the time when I feel unworthy of spiritual guidance, the Lord is always always always there to help me along the way. Especially when I need Him the most with our own personal loss and disappointment. 

This summer has also been filled with lots of decision making. After weeks- even months of discussing the possibility of Cony not pursuing his PhD, we have indeed decided to only pursue the Masters. Which puts us in the job market. We have learned fast, it's a scary place to be in. We keep reminding ourselves that we have never been left in the dust. Just when we feel it's completely impossible, the impossible happens. We know there is a plan for us, but man, oh man, practicing faith in that knowledge is difficult

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

the Dog Climb

Madelyn's room gets the best light in the house. So I have no problem spending most of my day in there watching her destroy it. Gracie has no problem with it either and thankfully she doesn't mind the baby climbing over her as her main work out/play activity.







Monday, September 24, 2012

Bath Time

We can't choose a favorite time we have with M Cubed but bath time is getting more and more fun because she's getting more adventurous. Plus it's funny to see her bend down to drink the water and come up looking like Santa Claus. We're so thankful she loves the water. 







Monday, September 17, 2012


For almost two weeks I have stewed over something I couldn't remember. I felt sick about it. It was something that Cony had done for me and all I could remember was telling him "that was probably one of the sweetest things you've done for me". You would think I could remember it! 

I was praying to remember this memory and my prayer was answered on Saturday while listening to Pandora mowing the lawn. Apparently I have a lot of "ah-ha" moments with Pandora. What can I say? Music is powerful. 

He sent me a YouTube video and said "This is exactly how I feel about you". 

Blake Shelton's- God Gave Me You

I consider myself one of the luckiest girls to have a man who loves me for me AND still loves me after all the ugly moments in our life.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Quiet Book

My mother couldn't wait to give us Madelyn's birthday gift she made and I can't wait to share it. I'm still blown away and find myself walking into babies room just to look over all the details of the book. It's a true treasure! 















Friday, September 14, 2012

Clap! Clap! Clap!

On Sunday, September 2nd while helping a friend move Madelyn starting clapping for the first time. And she hasn't been able to stop since. Whatever she's doing, she always take a moment to stop and clap for herself. We love it and we love her growing animation!








Perfect to Me

While playing or cleaning I like to expose MMM to music (since neither one of us can sing). I feel it's never too early to expose babies to great music. The other day I had Pandora on and I heard the song Perfect by the Glee cast. Not sure the original artist. I can't get the lyrics out of my head because it's exactly how I feel about our Madelyn but most importantly how I want her to feel about herself. Yes, I have many hopes and dreams for her but soon she'll have her own dreams and if she doesn't see herself as Heavenly Fathers sees her - those hopes and dreams will be hard to come by. Something I unfortunately had to learn the hard way.


Pretty, pretty please! 
Don't you ever ever feel 
Like you're less than...
Less than perfect.
Pretty, pretty please! 
If you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing..
You are perfect, to me.


I feel so blessed I was able to capture this precious moment of her sleeping. I wish I knew how to seer every moment of her life into my memory.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Lovin' Maine- Part 2

When the lovely owner of the Metcalf Home jumped into our car for a ride- she guided us through town by way of the lake. We saw where the road once began from a train track that followed next to the lake. I wish I had words to describe the beauty. 




On our way to dinner, Cony surprised me by taking me through Augusta. I didn't know where we were going but he really wanted me to see something. Little did I know it was the building I was already vocally swooning over.

This is where his grandfather graduated high school. If you haven't figured it out he has the same name as his dad and grandfather. 



Then we made our way to New Harbor for dinner. I fell in love with this place before I learned it was pretty famous for it's lobster. Cony picked his own and I enjoyed a fresh salmon meal. But what I loved more was the scenery and atmosphere (and the people!). 









If it weren't every ones dream to retire in Maine and have a Bed and Breakfast, we'd be jump starting our plans now!