Answers.

Some prayers were answered this week and I'm feeling very grateful and very hopeful. First I want to say how sincerely grateful and loved we feel for all the emails we received in regards to our struggle with infertility. Your love and openness has humbled us and we thank you!

Went to a new doctor and for some reason was nervous. Probably because I knew I was going to get a pap smear and who in their right minds like to get those done?? And it didn't help that I saw two darling women who from the back did NOT look pregnant but indeed they were. They could both even cross their legs with no problem and look lady- like, while I'm sitting in my chair trying not to look like I'm there to watch a game on TV. Sometimes, life just isn't fair.

On Sunday I felt the sudden need to have a fast that night and every time I fast, my prayers are answered immediately. True story. The doctor was one of those answers. He sat there and listened to me, asked me questions and even let me shed a tear or two. He was compassionate and felt he sincerely cared. Another miracle had occurred that morning (that I won't opening say) but because this 'miracle' came- he's able to run a bunch of test on me in the next 3 weeks that he wouldn't have been able to do other wise. In the last 3 years the doctors I've gone to have immediately given me a referral to a specialist without even running test on me and knowing for sure what course of action would be best. Which has never set well with me. It's like putting a band aid over a broken bone .. not really dealing with the real issue. Dr. T (short for difficult last name) has given me some medication to take and like I said running more labs and told me loosing weight would be the first step. The funny part...he told me to get to a weight (which I will not disclose) that I never remember being. Maybe 4th grade? I've always been active and never thought I would be in a situation where I was told to loose weight and get it together. But that's exactly where I'm finding myself and I'm feeling very hopeful. Ironic, really.

In other news: just finished my first week at Pottery Barn and I'm so happy to be back in design! I already have a long list of things I'm gonna to use my discount on and hope Cony doesn't regret letting me get a job at the big PB.